laurie

Thu, 15 Nov 2007 14:39:15 GMT

my life feels so good right now, its like something loved up you see in the movies that u end up feeling so happy for them that its all going well and it makes u wish ur life was like that

well for once i feel like im the star of the show, everythings going great! living with alan has had its ups and downs but now its all settled and i feel like its how we was 6months ago.

its amazing that even after being with him 11 months everything still feels fresh and new like its still the beginning of something amazing.. usually after about 9 months in past relationships it felt like everything was drawing to a close and that it was biding its time til something fucks up everything was 2 comfortable and no fun anymore llike i was just with them coz i felt i had nothing better 2 do or maybe coz i didnt want to be alone... (ofc at the time it didnt feel like that but just looking back...)

with alan its so much different and im so happy that even though things went downhill and i felt like i was at that stage of "biding its time til something fucks up" its all come back into place we both made efforts and learnt new things about each other and now its all bounced back...

its all about the huggles and giggles xx

hope everyone else is ok ;)

Wed, 02 May 2007 13:13:54 GMT

rawr...

thats all i can be bothered 2 say...

Tue, 19 Dec 2006 12:53:40 GMT

lol im writing so many entries but im just rly bored doin a write up for my photoshop project and im rly bored!
so i thought id show u what i did its nothing truly great but im learning :)

theyre photomontage pics

thought for 2007

Tue, 19 Dec 2006 12:21:08 GMT

i cant wait til 2007 new begginings and all that...

i hope its gonna be a good year for us all, i have had my ups and downs this year but it hasnt been very exciting i dont think i have lived my life to the full in 2006 i spent most of it wasting away at computer games and being a slob round nats, working weekend nights mainly so never went out much...

its got more exciting towards the end im spending more time with tasha now and now i have alan everything seems so much better, im up slimes a lot more now and enjoying myself having fun wih my youth whilst it lasts lol im 21 next year which is a scary thought but cool at the same time.

next year i hope 2 start my driving lessons and try to pass get myself a car a bit of freedom :D

i wanna go back up leicester sometime see everyone up there coz its been way too long! and also planning to go nottingham sometime in the near future with nash so thats gonna be cool!

i wanna get my passport sorted out and have a little trip somewhere i need a holiday see the world a bit!
either norway 2 see some mates or go amsterdam or germany havnt made my mind up but i gotta do something get a bit more motivated make it a year 2 remember!

lets hope it all happens! time for fun times now and im not gonna let any1 hold me back ^^

Tue, 19 Dec 2006 12:03:23 GMT

Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

Last Wednesday on a flight to Colorado Springs, I stole the emergency flight information card (-40 points). Last Thursday I put gum in airport_tales's hair (-12 points). In September I gave cybersquish a Dutch Oven (-10 points). Last Sunday I pushed sterilespells in the mud (-17 points). In March I gave change to a homeless guy (19 points).

Overall, I've been naughty (-60 points). For Christmas I deserve a moldy sandwich!

Sincerely,
elektryx

Tue, 19 Dec 2006 01:32:22 GMT

On the twelfth day of Christmas, elektryx sent to me...

Twelve electioneerers drumming

Eleven sterilespells piping

Ten asradels a-leaping

Nine festivals dancing

Eight goggles a-clubbing

Seven boots a-sleeping

Six gigs a-drinking

Five ha-a-a-air falls

Four video games

Three seeing friends

Two shiny things

...and a silver in a mythology.

Wed, 13 Dec 2006 09:50:04 GMT

feeling a lot better now :D guess i was just having 1 of those days
got my new dress through from corrupted clothing xD
its purdy going 2 wear it at slimes this sat
any1 up for it?
(slimes i mean) lol

Mon, 11 Dec 2006 16:28:05 GMT

im in a strange mood...

im happy with whats happening around me im goin out more got more of a social life got a fantastic new bf who is just loverly
but at times this week i havnt felt myself :S i dont feel so attractive and feeling like i dont deserve alan and i dont know why
everyone deserves someone maybe im scared of getting hurt or something, i mean its finally i find a guy who likes the same music as me and that and is a bit older!! but we make each other happy so i doubt that that is the problem i reckon its just me in 1 of my moods rly...

anyways i got some new outfits coming through the post a nice dress :O!

maybe its what i need 2 feel attractive again and i shouldnt rly worry with alan its not going too fast and well i guess we will see what happens i rly enjoy my time with him even though its only been a few days, and just 1 week of seeing each other. i guess im a little shy starting a new relationship because even though ive known him 2 years alrdy it feels like a new person coz theres new feelings involved lol...

maybe i need 2 give tasha a call when get in from college as for now i must get on with this video report i have 2 hand in in an hour n half :O

meh

Mon, 27 Nov 2006 13:42:50 GMT

i hate being single... but i guess i got 2 get on with life lol

im going 2 see the cruxshadows this sat and slimelight afterwards which is prob gonna kill me for work suday but i dont care i need a night out
infact yes ill prob plunge 2 my death as im 2 tired the weekends as it is with work saturday and sunday and college monday and tuesday meaning no lay ins or recovery til wednesday >.<
oh well im only 20 it be fun heh

o dear

Tue, 21 Nov 2006 17:43:40 GMT

havnt wrote in here for a while and personally
i just feel like i need 2 talk about it

me and nat broke up 2 weeks ago since then weve been up and down
then we started seeing each other to see how things go and some things have brought me back to feeling down again like theres only affection when he wants it and like well after 2 days of not seeing him he couldnt even pare 10 mins on the phone wen i felt so lonley he'd rather watch a film, yea he said he was tired and i found out he was watching a film with his mate at home i mean i got like not even 5 mins 2 talk 2 him after hardly any contact for 2 days and were suposed 2 be seeing how things go... its all very 1 way atm

so 2night im trying to be stubborn not contact him and i was meant 2 see him 2night but im not going too, infact i know its best for me if i just forget him and i want him 2 think that i want him 2 think i dont give a shit like him.

but its so hard when all i wanna do is be with him love him and hold him close i gave up my addiction of a game for him coz i wanted to make it work when well my friend was right im the only 1 keeping it together and why should i bother he did me wrong! (wont go into it)

sad thing is he was like my best friend and i enjoy his company. i have lived with him the past year and im finding it hard 2 live without him now, its not that i need him i just want him.

thing is im not attracted to anyone else, i dont want any1 else but i just want 2 be loved and be in love its gonna be a toughy but im gonna try my best 2 do whats best for me

not looking forward 2 the old meet someone new thing im not in the mood 2 trust any1 else atm

sux sux sux >.

slimelight + katscan

Mon, 26 Jun 2006 01:11:20 GMT

had an awsome night sat night

went 2 see katscan play n spoke 2 the electro drummer phil n said they should of been headlining coz i didnt think much of the other guys n he said thats the best compliment hes ever had n we chatted bout how awsome the gig was when they played with combicrist in december
n i said i dont have the new album yet so he bought it for me :O
i was well surprised he is such a nice guy!!

i hope 2 see them again on 20 july when they are headlining so that should be cool!!

i was so drunk was drinking from 7pm-6am n had a laugh with matt n amber n nat n saw my friend indigo again as i aint seen him for ages! so was cool 2 catch up!

huge hangover 2day lol

anyways im off 2 bed

15 years of fear

Wed, 19 Apr 2006 10:58:46 GMT

went 2 see fear factory last night was really good thought id actually get involved in the crowd this time n soon realised it was a huge mistake wearing my light up cyberdog top coz as so as that bends its fucked
but luckly it pulled through.
lots of people were helpin me actually
but it was kinda fun bein pushed about in a crowd again.
when the support bands was on i was sayin 2 nat i think this might be my last metal gig coz i didnt enjoy it, but when fear factory came on i thought ill leave my options open :P

nat had an awsome time it was his birthday pressie from me 2 go see them so im glad he had loadsa fun

im especially happy they played archetype

fun fun fun

and i cant wait til 7th may 2 drag him 2 covenant lol

i know this aint much of an entry but im tired and i cant be arsed

Thu, 06 Apr 2006 00:17:12 GMT

i havnt wrote in here much but i havnt really had anything 2 write really..

but today was interesting had a nice day up camden with nat mark lisa and tasha (lil_beast6669) did some shoppin which i shouldnt have really i bought a new spank top green nail varnish and a cd most wanted hardcore and gabber pretty good really something extra to annoy nat with tasha got a beautiful spank pinstripe skirt and cyberdog top, nat was gonna buy some cyberdog trousers but couldnt find the 1's he was looking for... :\

after all that me nat and tasha met up with our friend john to go soho for a photo shoot but ended up in russle square, was cool but started 2 get cold and numb after a while n could feel myself goin into a trance bein in the same pose for goth knows how long. i had 2 dress pretty goth tho with bright green hair lol coz its was like a goth version of christ bein dead in our arms after bein on the cross n me n tasha was meant 2 be the 2 marys holdin him under a tree with john being crist oh ill have 2 show u guys some pics or something wheni get them off the photographer or better still show u the website after he's painted them...

bexley (sterilespells) came along aswell after work and bless her gave me n tasha a rose each which was so sweet of her!! and i thank u again hunni!!!! ♥

after the shoot we went to a pub in soho called intrepid fox was really cool in there simular to the dev so that was cool n we had a few drinks n a laugh then we came home although now i owe tasha 20 quid 4 the spank top!!!!!

fun fun fun day!

music

Fri, 24 Mar 2006 13:08:31 GMT

well put myself n a really good mood coz electioneerer and i was talkin about ophidian so i have been listenin to them and enzyme x all morning has made me want to go clubbing now but i know not even slimelight plays them :( i requested it once and the dj didnt even know who i was talking about :S

anyways...

nat woke up n tom came round n put greenday on which put me in a really bad mood and i just went all touchy all of a sudden n i dunno y, ive always considered myself to be openminded about all music
i know nat likes different music 2 me but i hate most of his stuff like misfits grrr... makes me want 2 go back 2 leicester coz bein round adams n havin other people listen to things i do was wierd but really cool ^_^ but i cant move there :( nat dont want 2 and i love him

fuckin hell talk about rambling on....

anyways hes gone swimming with tom now and i cant coz well my hairs bleached and green n half braided
so i cant 4 a long while
ill have to think of another way 2 keep fit lol ^_^

i have work 2night :\ that sux 2

i need 2 get out more lol

wooo

Fri, 17 Mar 2006 22:43:00 GMT

i finally did a pic of my new hair but its not great so ill put some better 1's up soon!

wow

Wed, 15 Mar 2006 00:48:06 GMT

i bleached my hair n dyed it half green!!!.....well tasha dyed it

ill put pics up soon when its dry n im less scared of brushin it n my hair breakin :S plus its kinda red in places lol damn maybe 2 much bleach in 2 days :S

no more black hair n bordom.... but chances are im gonna braid it in a week r high lol

so erm... tada! *does a lil dance*

ewww

Thu, 09 Mar 2006 11:53:26 GMT

blowing my nose seems 2 be the everlasting task atm

n now my ears have poped

this sux i hope im better 4 2morrow night my 1st friday night out in 4 months

looks like i need another tissue

thinkin sensibly

Tue, 07 Mar 2006 20:09:36 GMT

feelin ill grrr stupid colds!

its ashs birthday 2day but i didnt feel well enough 2 go 2 the pub plus i cant really afford it

i had a chat with nat last night n we decided im gonna move back home n stay round here just a couple of days see how it goes were well 2 young 4 it plus were startin 2 act like an old married couple we hardly hug or have any 'fun' coz were 2 used 2 bein round each other, so if i go back home then we'll get a chance 2 miss each other n wont take it 4 granted when we see each other, plus it gives us a chance 2 go out with our friends more as well as have each other.. we just dont wanna get bored of each other lol
but we gotta decorate my room 1st coz its all a mess atm i prob still be online coz when nat gets his new comp goin he said i can borrow this 1 so yay

i need a new job theres so many things i wanna do places 2 go peope 2 see clubs 2 go 2 its what i always wanted 2 do n nat said he will come with me sometimes so yay!

i got my 1st friday night off in a while this fri so im hopin im well enough 2 go out

i miss so many people so im gonna have 2 make a few friday night trips up southend aswell!

so much 2 do so little money :(

in more detail

Sun, 05 Mar 2006 18:45:24 GMT

right im gonna try not bein lazy now

got 2 leicester bout 1 n met wiv adam who gave me a tour of the high street n found kieran on the way!
we went back 2 adams n me bein lazy not botherin 2 bring any other boots had 2 walk back 2 adams wearin my transmuters! and end up gettin blisters already which i wasnt impressed with and i hadnt even got 2 the club yet! we chilled out 4 a bit waitin 4 rich n ian 2 turn up in which they ended up bein 3 hours late!
then after we picked up beddin n stuff i met laura, varity, vicky n joe i was abit shy at 1st coz every1 knew every1 except me but we all started chattin n things were cool!

i started feelin abit shit tho coz i think i caught nats chest infection but i werent gonna let that stop me! after a few drinks we made our way down 2 autonomy which was something i wasnt lookin 4ward 2 coz i knew my feet would hurt like hell but wasnt really anything else i could do so i slowed every1 down abit but every1 was really friendly n caring n i thought that was really decent of them!

when we got there i had 2 rest my achy feet lol! n started drinking i didnt do much dancing but i still had a good time chattin 2 people n catchin up with those i aint spoke 2 4 yonks! met some new friends 2 which was really cool! everyone was really nice n friendly n all wanted me 2 come back ^_^ n had more offers if i needed anywhere 2 crash!

im even considerin maybe movin there 1 day prob once ive started driving n have a decent job! coz i seem 2 fit in leicester more than essex prob coz i feel like i get on better with every1 there n its close 2 most big cities so its easy 2 go clubbing its always been an idea 4 me 2 get away from essex n u never know it might happen i always welcome new adventures!!!

when it came 2 the mornin we all stayed up chattin vicky n varity made us a cupper which was great ^_^
n i prob only got 2 hours sleep n i still aint had a kip now since i got home! im savin it all 2night so i kip like a baby :P

was quite sad 2 leave so early after i got over my i want 2 go home now 2 essex 2 my loverly warm bed with my loverly warm bf! i guess coz i thought i aint gonna see any1 4 a while but i think i could force myself 2 visit more often :P n get nat 2 come as well ^_^

so i basically wanna say 2 every1 who was there thanks 4 makin me feel so welcome n looked after :P i had a great time n i hope 4 many more woop!

Leicester!

Sun, 05 Mar 2006 16:45:24 GMT

hey all im slowly feelin more like shit so ill make this a quick 1 n go 2 bed O_o

met up with loadsa people made new friends n had an eventful night at autonomy! i have loadsa pix ^_^ so maybe they will do the talkin coz im bein lazy lol :P

me n rich

me n kieran

me n adam

me n ian

me n fran

me n mike

me n joe

me n drask

really nice people i spoke 2 in the toilets

joe

laura me n varity

me n nathan

me n joe again

laura n joe

kieran

me n vicky

rich

random photo

me n ian again

if u was there that night n want 2 steal some piccies go 4 it :D

new hair

Wed, 01 Mar 2006 00:27:01 GMT

heres something i did when i was bored earlier my best ever yet in my opinion

boreded

Tue, 28 Feb 2006 12:51:43 GMT

braiding my hair coz it keeps me entertained 4 hours plus i wont have 2 bother with it the weekend ;)

im still lookin 4ward 2 it but nat said he aint gonna come coz hes still ill :(
so thats a bit shite, but no worries coz his aunts still givin me a lift but ill be comin up on my own so nat said if i dont get looked after hes gonna kill somebody lol...

o well i can look after myselfs anyways!

well gotta finish this hair coz i might be down the alex 2night

*waves*

boo

Tue, 21 Feb 2006 14:51:04 GMT

thought id actually write in here 4 once

status: tired yet bored n want 2 go out n play

NAT: still ill in bed has a bad chest infection :(

things 2look 4ward 2: goin 2 leicester 2 see friends n go clubbing, nat feelin better, summer